Things are getting a bit complex at the work place. I have never gotten along with a group of people as quick and as strongly as I have these four: Ash, Hels, Les, and Greg. But it isn't an equal closeness for sure. My relationship with Ash and Greg stronger than my relationship with Hels and hers a bit stronger than my relationship with Les even though we work on the same team. When the work is solo and you are at the same level of experience, being in the same team doesn't really come into play in terms of interactions.
Keeping that in mind, I somehow did not realize that within the group there would be varying strengths of relationships. As in, Ash and Greg are also fairly close...and apparently share what I tell the other. Even though it is just jokes that I make and nothing terribly serious, I noticed I was becoming a little annoyed because it just felt kind of unnecessary. It started with Spotify and me downloading it to join the others in showing what we were streaming. I saw Ash was listening to a song with a title that made me think it was a sad-ish/angsty romantic song. On impulse I had the thought "How could she relate to that song when she is married to the person she thinks she will be with forever"?
I decided to share with her the thought though I prefaced it with a caution that it may make me sound like a dick, but it was just the first thought I had. She said she still related to the songs...or that she liked them just fine and we moved on. Later I was chatting with Greg on messenger and we made a joke about "Holla" being a virus - I bumped it to Herpes Simplex Type 1. He thought it was gross - I thought it was accurate. What I wasn't aware of was Greg then going to Ash to share the virus joke and her countering with "Keep in mind: this is coming from a girl who thinks people in relationships cant listen to sad songs".
Which is exactly was Greg then came at me with in a pseudo/genuine joking/serious way. I explained what I meant and he expressed that he understood but didn't agree. I had to let him know that it wasn't something to agree or disagree about, but rather just a random thought that had no baring on opinion or fact. That's when the annoyance started and it continued as we went to break and were joking about them talking about me and I was pseudo/genuine joking/seriously annoyed.
Toward the end of the day as I was actually working on something (slow day), Greg messages me "You know we think you are awesome, right"? Ugh, dumb grin all over my face. I fumbled for a proper response, "Do you think I am upset?" "I worry." "Don't." Then he reiterated that they thought I was cool. "Noted. Shared. Thanks!"
Keeping that in mind, I somehow did not realize that within the group there would be varying strengths of relationships. As in, Ash and Greg are also fairly close...and apparently share what I tell the other. Even though it is just jokes that I make and nothing terribly serious, I noticed I was becoming a little annoyed because it just felt kind of unnecessary. It started with Spotify and me downloading it to join the others in showing what we were streaming. I saw Ash was listening to a song with a title that made me think it was a sad-ish/angsty romantic song. On impulse I had the thought "How could she relate to that song when she is married to the person she thinks she will be with forever"?
I decided to share with her the thought though I prefaced it with a caution that it may make me sound like a dick, but it was just the first thought I had. She said she still related to the songs...or that she liked them just fine and we moved on. Later I was chatting with Greg on messenger and we made a joke about "Holla" being a virus - I bumped it to Herpes Simplex Type 1. He thought it was gross - I thought it was accurate. What I wasn't aware of was Greg then going to Ash to share the virus joke and her countering with "Keep in mind: this is coming from a girl who thinks people in relationships cant listen to sad songs".
Which is exactly was Greg then came at me with in a pseudo/genuine joking/serious way. I explained what I meant and he expressed that he understood but didn't agree. I had to let him know that it wasn't something to agree or disagree about, but rather just a random thought that had no baring on opinion or fact. That's when the annoyance started and it continued as we went to break and were joking about them talking about me and I was pseudo/genuine joking/seriously annoyed.
Toward the end of the day as I was actually working on something (slow day), Greg messages me "You know we think you are awesome, right"? Ugh, dumb grin all over my face. I fumbled for a proper response, "Do you think I am upset?" "I worry." "Don't." Then he reiterated that they thought I was cool. "Noted. Shared. Thanks!"
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