Written at 10pm on 12/4
So last night we went back to Nate's house and had some wine and watched some Margaret Cho. On the way over I was bitching about all the horrible issues I have been having with my roommates to Lily and she had shared some of her own. When we ended up on the balcony at Nate's they mentioned "Weeds" and when I expressed interest, Lily got excited and said we should live together. I didn't have any objections as it would be cheaper and we truly seem to have the same mentality when it comes to living with others.
Things got awkward a few minutes later when they wanted to focus on my lack of a love life/sex life. I shrugged off the concern for my sexual well-being as usual and Nate honed in on Lily. They were kind of whispering amongst themselves about her last sexual encounter, Jake was pressing her to name it and she said something to the effect "the bad one" and then mentioned the last time she slept with someone was in March and then she felt it necessary to say "that was consensual" but in such a way that I took it to mean she had raped someone which didn't make sense as she does not seem the type to do that.
So I stopped her to laugh at the way she said that phrase and as I am mid-sentence I see Nate waving his hands wildly to stop me from saying it. Then there was silence. Then Nate asked if she wanted to talk about it. Then she said she didn't and wanted to talk about something else. The silence prevailed for another few seconds before the two of them could come up with something else to say. I remained silent and even while they were talking to me about other things my mind was reeling over what just happened. I know there is a huge and crazy statistic about how many women are sexually violated in the world so I shouldn't have been surprised, but I had never had to deal with that. I'm lucky.
So last night we went back to Nate's house and had some wine and watched some Margaret Cho. On the way over I was bitching about all the horrible issues I have been having with my roommates to Lily and she had shared some of her own. When we ended up on the balcony at Nate's they mentioned "Weeds" and when I expressed interest, Lily got excited and said we should live together. I didn't have any objections as it would be cheaper and we truly seem to have the same mentality when it comes to living with others.
Things got awkward a few minutes later when they wanted to focus on my lack of a love life/sex life. I shrugged off the concern for my sexual well-being as usual and Nate honed in on Lily. They were kind of whispering amongst themselves about her last sexual encounter, Jake was pressing her to name it and she said something to the effect "the bad one" and then mentioned the last time she slept with someone was in March and then she felt it necessary to say "that was consensual" but in such a way that I took it to mean she had raped someone which didn't make sense as she does not seem the type to do that.
So I stopped her to laugh at the way she said that phrase and as I am mid-sentence I see Nate waving his hands wildly to stop me from saying it. Then there was silence. Then Nate asked if she wanted to talk about it. Then she said she didn't and wanted to talk about something else. The silence prevailed for another few seconds before the two of them could come up with something else to say. I remained silent and even while they were talking to me about other things my mind was reeling over what just happened. I know there is a huge and crazy statistic about how many women are sexually violated in the world so I shouldn't have been surprised, but I had never had to deal with that. I'm lucky.
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