I have been having unusual spikes of anxiety today. Unusual in the sense that I have no idea what is triggering it. It came on around mid-afternoon while playing Sims with Sandra sitting next to me in bed. Inexplicable, and gained in strength until I closed the game to try to focus myself. At that point the theory was that I was anxious about wasting the day away with games. Then there was the veggie stew I had in the crockpot all day that I needed to eventually turn off and store it before going out for an old co-worker's birthday party.
Messing with the stew didn't work so then I figured it was anxiety about going to the birthday party, and my nerves seemed to support that the closer I got to the location. That went by fine though and now I am home with a full stomach and still some jitters. Perhaps it is the prospect of work tomorrow. I have noticed that the idea of the job makes me far more nervous than actually doing the job. I have had a few nights within the past week with brain draining dreams involving making certificates. I tend to do that when I am worried about errors.
I want to spend my time away from work pretending I know virtually nothing about that world. It makes the time off much more enjoyable when you don't think about all the cases that are going to carry over through the weekend. Things that would normally have me quite wary, like e-mailing and chatting with people I don't know, are becoming second nature. But when I think of them on the days off they are just intimidating and things I don't want to do. I am not sure what is the best way to go about this - disconnect or fully immerse.
Messing with the stew didn't work so then I figured it was anxiety about going to the birthday party, and my nerves seemed to support that the closer I got to the location. That went by fine though and now I am home with a full stomach and still some jitters. Perhaps it is the prospect of work tomorrow. I have noticed that the idea of the job makes me far more nervous than actually doing the job. I have had a few nights within the past week with brain draining dreams involving making certificates. I tend to do that when I am worried about errors.
I want to spend my time away from work pretending I know virtually nothing about that world. It makes the time off much more enjoyable when you don't think about all the cases that are going to carry over through the weekend. Things that would normally have me quite wary, like e-mailing and chatting with people I don't know, are becoming second nature. But when I think of them on the days off they are just intimidating and things I don't want to do. I am not sure what is the best way to go about this - disconnect or fully immerse.
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