Day 182: Never Settle

Another day lounging and watching episodes of Castle. I tried to change it up with an episode of Band of Brothers and also watched the first episode of a UK show called Sirens. I only watched Sirens because one Richard Madden who plays one Robb Stark on Game of Thrones plays a gay man in the show and that was just too tempting to miss. I'm not sure what I think about the other characters an the show as a whole yet, but I will give it the three episode chance.

I have been craving something exciting, but not anticipating anything other than the normal work, eat, sleep, spend days off inside routine. Feeling trapped here like every other place I have lived which should really not be happening now that I am not tied down by school. However, here I am struggling to find another job because apparently my degree is worth shit and my experience is worth less than that. Can't help but feel kind of useless in life, destined for a life of boredom and repetition.

I asked a co-worker, the middle age female in garden I like to talk to, how long she was planning to work this job. She had no plans to do something else, was totally okay with working there indefinitely. I can't imagine ever feeling like that. I just hope that that rebellious instinct I felt upon hearing her answer will be what enables me to live the life of an adventurer rather than a caged animal.