I have been having a little Louis C.K. obsession for the past few days. It started with his stand up specials and then on to his show. I suppose it really started with his guest role on Parks and Recreation. In a show with quite a few guest stars he really stood out, was able to create a likeable character that the viewer missed once he was gone. His own show hits a lot of different notes varying to the everyday reflections of childhood to poker night with fellow comic to the extreme and ridiculous.
Now I am watching the episode I have seen a scene from when Ran was watching it a few months ago. Louis admits to Pamela (played by Pamela Adlon) the depth of his feelings:
"Pamela, I'm in love with you...yeah it's that bad...you're so beautiful to me...shut up! Let me tell you...let me! Every time I look at your face or even remember it - it wrecks me. And the way you are with me, and you're just fun and you're...you shit on all over me and you make fun of me and you're real. I don't have enough time in any day to think about you enough. I feel like I'm going to live a thousand years 'cause that's how long it's going to take me to have one thought about you which is that I am crazy about you, Pamela. I don't want to be with anyone else."
("Louis...")
"I don't! I really don't! don’t even think about women anymore. I think about you. I had a dream the other night that you and I were on a train…we were on this train and you were holding my hand…that’s the whole dream, you were holding my hand, and I felt you holding my hand. I woke up and I couldn’t believe it wasn’t real. I’m sick in love with you Pamela, it’s like a condition, it’s like Polio, I feel like I’m gonna die if I can’t be with you…and I can’t be with you…so I’m gonna die. And I don’t care. Because I was brought into existence to know you. And that’s enough. The idea that you would want me back…it’s like greedy. I’m doing a bad job of this."
That scene hit me without ever having watched the show, without knowing the type of person Louis is, without anything. It was not only a brilliant piece of writing but so honestly delivered, I was really expecting Pamela to be fully charmed, wanted her to be receptive to that rawness. She wasn't and I walked away from the television, but it stuck with me enough to think on it over a month later when I had run out of television to watch.
The fact that she doesn't accept him was probably the best part in terms of hooking me in total. I have been there, explaining in what I thought was awkward eloquence how I felt, why I felt, that the "felt" would be forever "felt" and it just failed to affect the person. You can't really fault someone for not feeling anything back, but it is a gut wrenching reality to face - that you just let the emotion flow for naught.
Now I am watching the episode I have seen a scene from when Ran was watching it a few months ago. Louis admits to Pamela (played by Pamela Adlon) the depth of his feelings:
"Pamela, I'm in love with you...yeah it's that bad...you're so beautiful to me...shut up! Let me tell you...let me! Every time I look at your face or even remember it - it wrecks me. And the way you are with me, and you're just fun and you're...you shit on all over me and you make fun of me and you're real. I don't have enough time in any day to think about you enough. I feel like I'm going to live a thousand years 'cause that's how long it's going to take me to have one thought about you which is that I am crazy about you, Pamela. I don't want to be with anyone else."
("Louis...")
"I don't! I really don't! don’t even think about women anymore. I think about you. I had a dream the other night that you and I were on a train…we were on this train and you were holding my hand…that’s the whole dream, you were holding my hand, and I felt you holding my hand. I woke up and I couldn’t believe it wasn’t real. I’m sick in love with you Pamela, it’s like a condition, it’s like Polio, I feel like I’m gonna die if I can’t be with you…and I can’t be with you…so I’m gonna die. And I don’t care. Because I was brought into existence to know you. And that’s enough. The idea that you would want me back…it’s like greedy. I’m doing a bad job of this."
That scene hit me without ever having watched the show, without knowing the type of person Louis is, without anything. It was not only a brilliant piece of writing but so honestly delivered, I was really expecting Pamela to be fully charmed, wanted her to be receptive to that rawness. She wasn't and I walked away from the television, but it stuck with me enough to think on it over a month later when I had run out of television to watch.
The fact that she doesn't accept him was probably the best part in terms of hooking me in total. I have been there, explaining in what I thought was awkward eloquence how I felt, why I felt, that the "felt" would be forever "felt" and it just failed to affect the person. You can't really fault someone for not feeling anything back, but it is a gut wrenching reality to face - that you just let the emotion flow for naught.
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