I've been unintentionally starving myself. Last night I realized I had no meat in the house and I didn't want to just cook pasta so I have the rest of my Frosted Mini Wheats for dinner. It wasn't a lot, but it filled me enough that I went to sleep content.
Then I went to work this morning. When I work Bookkeeping I tend to be so busy that I don't stop to eat. There is candy in the room though so I will pop a few of those in my mouth as I go, so I ate a few bite size Snickers and a box of Nerds. But then when I went to lunch the idea of peanut butter and jelly (what I had brought) didn't seem very appealing. It would be more sugar and I needed something more substantial. I wasn't going to eat anything but someone had the cinnamon biscuit thing from Whataburger so I ate that.
I spent two hours watching the first episodes of the Borgias while filling out deposit spills and bags, in a rush to make sure and get them done in time before leaving. It was narrowly done and when I stood up I realized how dizzy I had become and tried to suck down some water. It wasn't helping. I was stuck with feeling bad but needing to go shopping to get something to cook to eat but being too weak to cook.
I went home and drank more water. Eat some sunflower seeds. Ate a nutty bar. Finally had enough energy and non-syrupy vein feeling to make some pasta. Essentially, I still didn't consume any protein. So I am going to take my first multivitamin since moving here. Mother would be so proud. Not about the starving bit, but she had been pushing those pills like a proper drug dealer for a while now.
Then I went to work this morning. When I work Bookkeeping I tend to be so busy that I don't stop to eat. There is candy in the room though so I will pop a few of those in my mouth as I go, so I ate a few bite size Snickers and a box of Nerds. But then when I went to lunch the idea of peanut butter and jelly (what I had brought) didn't seem very appealing. It would be more sugar and I needed something more substantial. I wasn't going to eat anything but someone had the cinnamon biscuit thing from Whataburger so I ate that.
I spent two hours watching the first episodes of the Borgias while filling out deposit spills and bags, in a rush to make sure and get them done in time before leaving. It was narrowly done and when I stood up I realized how dizzy I had become and tried to suck down some water. It wasn't helping. I was stuck with feeling bad but needing to go shopping to get something to cook to eat but being too weak to cook.
I went home and drank more water. Eat some sunflower seeds. Ate a nutty bar. Finally had enough energy and non-syrupy vein feeling to make some pasta. Essentially, I still didn't consume any protein. So I am going to take my first multivitamin since moving here. Mother would be so proud. Not about the starving bit, but she had been pushing those pills like a proper drug dealer for a while now.
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