I got so excited about the the ending of the latest episode of Game of Thrones, I tipped over a (mostly) empty glass of red, red, red tea on my bed and had to change the sheets. I need to stop dropping shit on my bed, for real. But the episode was good, even for a reader of the books who knows what is coming, it brought it well.
It's a bad time of year for my unhealthy habit of thinking of those I should forget. I struggle with knowing logically that everything it better off, it was one sided, I am thinking about someone who doesn't spare me a thought, and yet when I don't actively think these things I am being dumb. I have dreams and daydreams and I drive places we had been in the hopes perhaps we will meet.
I have several moment throughout the day when I think I see him in other people, because I know full well they aren't him, but I still get that stomach dropping out feeling as their features morphed into what I am looking for. Who I am looking for. Who I don't need to be looking for. Because nothing will change and I didn't like it the first time around or the second.
It's a bad time of year for my unhealthy habit of thinking of those I should forget. I struggle with knowing logically that everything it better off, it was one sided, I am thinking about someone who doesn't spare me a thought, and yet when I don't actively think these things I am being dumb. I have dreams and daydreams and I drive places we had been in the hopes perhaps we will meet.
I have several moment throughout the day when I think I see him in other people, because I know full well they aren't him, but I still get that stomach dropping out feeling as their features morphed into what I am looking for. Who I am looking for. Who I don't need to be looking for. Because nothing will change and I didn't like it the first time around or the second.
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