Day 57

In the end, it wasn't that bad of a day at all. After an initial scare that was caused by stupidity on my part, the vault ended up being closer to 0 than I have ever seen it with the new system. And even the amount it was off I understand now why it was so.

I enrolled in insurance for the first time in my life. It is an odd satisfactory feeling, to know I will be taking care of my health...but I don't like losing that money. I feel like I am increasingly trapping myself. First the car and now the insurance. With the car I am locked in to a monthly payment for at least 5 years. Given that I am making decisions based on my current living condition which is of the co-inhabiting variety, it freaks me out that I may be stuck living with people for the length of that time. Sure, I could get a raise (or several) in the time but the prospect of being stuck in the same job for that long with no way out in sight...ugh.

I suppose I wouldn't be so freaked out if every day I didn't see people who are resigned to working the same low end job until they retire or die. Then again, I get restless very easy and I already feel a need to do more, make more, save more...though to what end, I am not sure.