Starting to wear down after so many days of working straight. Haven't had a day off since last Wednesday, and I still have to get through tomorrow. Then I will have fours days in a row, but the first two will be spent entertaining a friend who is coming into town.
We are going to see Broken Social Scene tomorrow night and then I have to come up with stuff to do that she would like. Shouldn't be too hard, but we shall see.
I keep having moments when I realize I live here and it is still a bizarrely detached state of being because I don't identify with the typical "Austin" essence and have really only glimpsed snippets of it what with my work schedule and penchant for video gaming. When I do think about exploring more I eneviatbly think about the person who is now nothing more than a fellow traveler who forked off on his own path. I still have waves of contrary feeling about him, fluctuating through relief that I don't know him anymore to awareness that my time here would be richer in experience if I did.
It's a waste of time and energy to entertain any thoughts on that matter, but I'm sure the impulse to contemplate such impossibilities will lessen in time.
We are going to see Broken Social Scene tomorrow night and then I have to come up with stuff to do that she would like. Shouldn't be too hard, but we shall see.
I keep having moments when I realize I live here and it is still a bizarrely detached state of being because I don't identify with the typical "Austin" essence and have really only glimpsed snippets of it what with my work schedule and penchant for video gaming. When I do think about exploring more I eneviatbly think about the person who is now nothing more than a fellow traveler who forked off on his own path. I still have waves of contrary feeling about him, fluctuating through relief that I don't know him anymore to awareness that my time here would be richer in experience if I did.
It's a waste of time and energy to entertain any thoughts on that matter, but I'm sure the impulse to contemplate such impossibilities will lessen in time.
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