Day 166

I spent what must have been five minutes hovering a cursor over a button, trying to reason with myself on whether to select it and more importantly, why it wouldn't be a dumb thing to do. I ended up clicking it in the end because the fact that I keep looking after so many months of nothing new is an indication that I am not going to get over it. Well, the two year period of silent before would confirm that as well.

I wouldn't say I want to be friends or hang out but it seems kind of ridiculous to be in the same city and think I can forget that fact. I realized it wouldn't matter if he responded either because I just felt so much better throwing out that line in acknowledgement of him. It is true that I am not really fond of anyone I have met here and I get restless to go out and do things but have no one to do them with so my mind can easily wander to him, but I wouldn't be quick to go back to the way things were. They weren't very fun, either.



I did make sure to get out today early in the morning before it was too hot. I drove to a mall down south to try and find the Legalize Gay shirt from Old Navy that my dad's girlfriend wants. They had sold out very quickly though and they were the only store in the Austin area to carry them. I continued looking around and found some shorts and a skirt that I tried on because I figure I should implement those type of garments into my wardrobe. I ultimately couldn't rationalize buying the one cute green short I liked because they were too short to wear to work and I wouldn't be bothered by the heat at any other time than when I am in Outside Garden so...shopping was a bust.

I did go to Wing Stop for lunch, though.